a homeless 23 year old after work toothpaste 20 dollars spun drugs atm frustration
I have so much in the back of my car
and i talked to him
before, he called out to me asking me for something and i yelled out to WAIT
i gave him 1/50th of it
prepper shit in my car
it drives me fucking crazy
i have this stuff but
why cant i change his life?
because i cant?
i know his age drug habits where he sleeps now
he didnt need a sleeping bag, clothes
accepted chocolate, food, all of my huge bags of toothpaste and toothbrushes for him and his friends
i gave him, not advice - but a small amount of shit as I gave him 20 bucks
i told him that I wished that he would use it for food and/or comfort - not drugs but I understand that he was nodding his head because he was appreciative and i get it
i asked him if he was using resources that my city has available for the homeless. Food, shelter, etc.
he said 211?
I said no and started to talk about our PD homeless liason that I know but he started talking about some other stuff and...he wasn't into it.
he said that he had pride to a certain extent and didn't like hand outs as much as everybody else.
we talked more.
he talked about his mother in a minute. She sucked.
he lost it after his girlfriend slept with some guy.
i don't even know where im going with this story. It's late now.
i am not drunk.
i can give a fuck about grammar, syntax, punctuation
i worked tonight. first thing that I had to do was to kick out a person
i made people laugh
business was slow
shit got busy
my job sucks ass
and I have the best job in the world
people would kill me for my job
So, here you have little old, fucking me - just depositing money into my local ATM because I need to, because if I don't, then my world will explode and then implode and explode in an even grander and more majestic galactic thing of beautiful destruction.
I want to take you by your fucking ears and help you.
I can do more. That's what sucks. And, please - do this for me. No, seriously. I'm Fucking RETARDED. I don't know how to do shit. I put the IDIOT into the Idiot Savant.
I am still haunted by being homeless when I was 18-19......
I was 15 seconds away from home and I turned my car around
I wanted to catch him again and give him more stuff
then I turned my car back around to go home
i understand why
but it bugs me
when I told him that i just got off of work and that i was a bartender
he was very surprised
he said that he thought that I was a doctor